Change is coming

This morning I got my nose pierced which I have wanted done for ages, but my best friend doesn't like it so I never bothered. But I had a sudden realization last week that I don't have to justify myself to her. I'm sick of her being the one that has the ultimate rule over my life. I move out of my house, out of my normal little life in two weeks time to go to university. And things need to change massively. So I'm starting by standing up for myself, this is my life. I need to start getting myself involved in things, doing things and just being, rather than constantly fearing other people's judgement of me and my actions.

My walk through wonderland

Today has been quite a beautiful day. After completing my assignment early this morning, I decided to take a solitary walk after dinner, still full of that blissfully satisfied feeling you get from finishing something. So I set off, my battered and beloved Converse on my feet and my hair a disheveled mess. I walked the entire length of the old railway line, set at the bottom of the woods. Maybe it was just because the sun was shining, but to my eyes everything seemed so colourful and picturesque. As I walked along (or skipped when there was nobody around) I didn't know where to look first. There was an abundance of charming fuchsia flowers under canopy of trees and tall bushes that enclosed me. Not a thick, dense canopy that blocks out all sunlight, but just the occasional shading from the sun. Little birds were to-ing and fro-ing just ahead of me, playfully chasing each other. The occasional dog walker or cyclist passed me and we exchanged smiles, sharing the beauty of the surroundings for just a short moment. I gulped in lungfuls of the fresh warm air, filled with the scent of freshly cut grass. I listened to the ground crunch beneath my feet.

To the left of me I caught glimpses of vast, green fields, some filled with grazing sheep and horses, others without and left perfectly untouched. Trees and hills filled the background, creating such a delightful view it inspired me into taking an interest in photography. To me, this seemed like such a beautiful sight, I just wanted to capture it and hold on to it forever. To the right of me, through the occasional peep hole in the bushes, I glanced at the perfectly manicured gardens of a few charming cottages. I passed the back gardens of a quiet housing estate where one family were sat enjoying the late afternoon sunshine with a barbecue, the delicious smell wafted up to me on the walkway. Further along I heard childish laughter and I caught a glimpse of a mother playing frisbee with her two children and smiled to myself. Children always bring happiness.

As I neared the end of the old railway, I slowed my pace, not quite ready to face reality once again. I smiled to myself and embraced the final moment of peace and tranquility before turning the corner and heading across the busy road in the direction of my home. I had enjoyed my little escape and was thankful to be living.

A day of indulgence

It's currently pouring with rain out and I'm home alone, so I'm sat curled up on the sofa listening to the melodic raindrops and eating copious amounts of dark chocolate. I feel comfortable and content. I'm rereading The Hobbit by  J. R. R. Tolkien and it feels so enchanting to get lost in another world of magic and adventure, my ideal place to be on a day like today. My strong feelings of desire and anger towards him seem to have subsided, just for a while, and in their place lies serenity and peace. Knowing my emotions and how they tend to seesaw from one extremity to the other, this may only last a short while so I'm embracing today wholeheartedly with a meaningful smile on my face. Writing comes easy on days like today.

Sincere apologies for neglecting you

Gosh, time really has flown since I last paid this blog any attention! I can't believe I lost interest so easily, before I even really got started here. Despite the fact I have an exam in the morning, I have been overcome by a sudden urge to write. Just to write about anything at all, with no real purpose or direction. But I guess that is the beauty of writing - it doesn't matter as long as you hold on to that feeling of serenity and creativity.

After such a spontaneous and torrential downpour earlier this evening, the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen appeared as the skies began to lighten and the moody grey clouds passed over. I could see one end out of my mum's bedroom window, and after I eagerly ran from her room to mine, I found that with a slight strain of my neck, I could see the other end of this rare spectacle from my own window. It was quite a peculiar rainbow, in that it had an extra band of purple underneath the usual array of colours. I found such beauty in this moment, in which both my mother and I momentarily paused, mesmerised by such a wondrous sight.

Nice to meet you

Hello there beautiful new world. I'm just new to Blogspot and so this may look a little bit like an eyesore right now, but have faith in me! I've come from Tumblr, in search of something new. I still regularly update my Tumblr but I simply fancied trying something different alongside it. Click here to visit my Tumblr. This is just the beginning, so watch this space!